Posts by Pascalle:
This has been in the media lately, due to Emma Watson mentioning it. It immediately resonated with me. For me it feels like the perfect term for something i have been trying to explain to people for a while now.
I don’t have a partner and i’m not looking for one either. I feel happy and comfortable by myself. Even with the difficulties I sometimes have I’m my own best friend and I love hanging out by myself. I don’t need “another half” which I actually find a very offensive term. It suggests that you’re half. No one is half, everybody is whole. I Understand that there are lots of people who like having a +1 and there’s nothing wrong with that. We humans crave interaction. Though some do more than others.
If there would be someone who I like, they don’t have to compete with others. I’m their only competition as i love spending time by myself and spending time with them means i have less time spending alone. Deeper down this signifies something very important too. You only want to be in a relationship with someone you love and in this case you have to allow yourself to love…. yourself.
This sounds so simple but from experience i found this one of the hardest things to learn in life. It’s so easy to hate yourself for all the mistakes and wrong things you do and choices you make. It’s so easy to punish yourself for it and make your life miserable and unhappy. Loving yourself and be caring and forgiving towards your own life requires a special kind of being able to let go and say it’s okay to be imperfect.
So I was wondering about my blog and went there just to notice that it’s been exactly one year since my last writing. It’s not like nothing happened or i had nothing to write about, I just didn’t. The truth is, very gradually some stress levels have increased. So slowly it wasn’t really noticed at […]
I’m someone who always keeps looking at the world around me and right now it feels like it’s both on fire and in shambles. So much going on and so little progressive thinking by our political world leaders. It makes me a special kind of sad. Than on the other hand I have my personal […]
A little background story for my OldTown character OK-Google. It’s been a while since I felt inspired to write. Enjoy! I remember (Part 1) I remember a time before the bombs fell. I remember a garden, a plastic swimmingpool, a sister. I remember my parents laughing as we were playing in the water. I was […]
I have actually contemplated for a while if I would write this post. Sometimes it feels like when you talk about it or write it down it becomes real and up to that point you can try to ignore it. I have the tendency of pushing myself physically all the time. There’s a reason for […]
So christmas was a bit rougher than I had wanted and it inspired me to think about what was going on and how it effects me. Why was I feeling that way and how could I make it better. I’m a very active person. At times I don’t realise this but it’s true, especially when […]
And what a year it was. After the long road of getting to know myself and learning to deal with all the stuff in my head, shaping my body in a more fit vehicle for my brain it was time to make a few new steps. First and most important was getting off welfare in […]
About a week ago I went to the pharmacy and got my pills. It’s a very light dose of anti-depressants and also works against anxiety and OCD called Escitalopram. Usually the start dose is 10mg but I’m on 5mg a day. After about 10 days I should be able to feel some changes the papers […]
There has been stuff going through my mind that I would like to write down here. It just kept going on and on but not crystalising into a post. The last few weeks feel like that while I slowly felt my emotions starting to get the better of me. My first conclusion last night, was […]
It’s no secret that I’m an incredible controlfreak. I always feel that when I do something myself I know it’ll be up to my standards (which are often ludicrously high due to being a perfectionist) or more easily described as “done right”. But it’s not only in those cases where I hold on to my […]