So, how am i doing?
The honest answer would be “So so”.
The finances are looking up, but I can’t say that i feel overly joyous at the moment.
Maybe it’s just some winterblues that’s kicking in, i don’t know.
I don’t feel productive, i don’t feel creative. I just kinda feel empty at the moment, looking at all the stuff i _could_ do but am not doing.
On the up side.. I’m still keeping my house rather clean and sloooowwwly am even getting rid of some mess in the back room.
7th of december my pay will come in, and together with some old bills, more of my situation will be solved.
Hopefully i will have a little to spare in december, so i can actually do something fun. I can tell you, it starts eating after a while that you don’t have money to do anything.
I want to start the work on my axe, which i’m going to use with my new larp char, but i need to see if i will have money to buy the latex.
All of that i will know the middle of december. Also if i’ll be able to buy a guineypig (or however you spell it)
And i don’t know what i want. In the end, i would like a job that really makes me happy. And even though the one i have right now is not bad at all, I don’t see it as my ultimate goal. It’s a means to reach an end.. or somethign like that.
I have plans.. i do. I talked to frank, i want that music program so i can start composing stuff.
I need to do something that makes a difference. I need to create something that will last.
I’m a little bumped that i wasn’t able to do nanowrimo. It wasn’t even a half assed attempt. I simply couldn’t do it, and it pisses me off.
It’s so typical for me.
I need to get ready for work now.