Sometimes, i’m wondering that myself.
What the frell am i doing?
I’m just lumbering through life at the moment. Going from one work day to another. The work is ok. I’m glad for the money that pays some (still long overdue) bills.
But a part of me wants more. It always wants more. Not more money, but more different stuff to do.
When i get home, i know there are things i should and could do, but i don’t do them.
I feel tired and empty and sit down behind my computer or watch some tv.
I’m finally starting to look at my weight again. It’s going to be a frustrating fight once more to get it down.
I’m eating my fibre and veggies, taking my food supplements.
Really try hard again to stay away from candy, chocolate and the other bad stuff.
If all goes well i should start to see results soon.
The new year will bring better stuff. A new internet connection, finally some money left over from my pay to actually do something nice.
I miss my friends, butin the mean time i don’t feel like leaving my house.
The last few days i feel like i haven’t seen any daylight at all.
I leave when it’s still dark, and get home from work when it’s already dark again.
My agency is looking for people for a project in South Africa.
I ponder if i should ask them for information….