Upcoming saturday i’m celebrating my 25th birthday for the 12th time. I have had questions of people why i celebrate it in july, as my birth date is in september.
Well… september is packed. Half the world has their b-day in september, and the other half organises fantasy fairs and larp weekends. So i just decided to pick a date for my party. Mid summer just feels right 🙂
As always i started inviting and such and that insecure part of me just always keeps wondering if i will end up with a house full of guests, or with 3 people dropping by. I have had one of those birthdays in the past, and quite frankly it made me feel like crap. So now i check with people if they’re really coming so i don’t get any bad surprises.
I feel silly for doing this. I know it’s insecurity. This year i’m having a party together with Claudia, as she had her 25th birthday last month. That also helps in the “i don’t want an empty house b-day party” syndrome.
So.. counting.. at least 15 people are certainly coming, probably just over 20.
That sets my mind at ease at last. I’m silly. bleh.