You know what it is after you haven’t written for months… It’s so hard to start again. You find 25 reasons to not write, canceling out whatever you found to make you write.
So i thought i would start this with a positive title.. Yes.
I have the house, i did the painting and such with my dad and help of friends. The move has come.. and gone.. again with help of friends and family.
I’m settling again in Bergen op Zoom and it feels odd.
At times i think i will wake up back in the old shabby appartment in rotterdam and that everything.. this nice appartment, the move.. is all a dream.
I’m really starting over. It feels both wonderful and on the other hand very lonely.
I had my housewarming and friends came from all over the netherlands. Almost all of them stayed over and it was absolutely wonderful.
I still have quite a bit to do here, but the appartment is already more livable than the one in Rotterdam. I still miss curtains in most rooms and need to take care of the studio. I need stuff to hang on my walls, it’s all still quite barren.
I got extra bookcases for the KC (knowledge Center) and i’m absolutely in love with that room.
The living room is completely finished save the curtains/blinds whichever i decide on.
I need to wait for my money to come in as there is some time between how the social services handles things. I’ll be fine in 6 days though.
In the mean time.. i’m cleaning.. and tidying.. and went to Carnaval and am working on a secret project.
I took some stunning pictures during the parade yesterday that i’m actually quite proud of (see “pictures” top link).
Did a lot of paperwork this morning and am done with that till the 1rst of april.
I have the feeling i’m no longer running after things, but do them, sort stuff, figure it out and not push it away anymore. This also feels odd in a way, but also very good. I look at myself and think.. crikey.. i came a long way.. very long way.