Many people know about being afraid to fail. But what if you’re afraid to succeed? (or even more fun, have both).
So how does that work?
Well you do something and you notice you can do this. But if you manage to really pull it off, it will mean that people will have new expectations for you and next time you’ll have to be on par to meet those or even better surpass at those too. Que the stress.
I notice i am doing this yet again, in two instances even. I tried the test questions of the EDX course i’m doing and it didn’t go too bad. It went better than expected even. So now i can do the real homework test, right? Nope, i notice i have been looking for all kinds of excuses to not do them. Because if i manage to do those and succeed, it means that people will expect me to take on even more difficult stuff of which i’m really not sure i can do it.
Which is absolutely not true, this is my head screaming this at me.
Same with trying to get down to 79 kilos. The moment i get to 80 something Mister Sabotage sets in and i have tons of candy so i will not reach my goal weight. This is so tiresome. At least now i -know- that i’m doing this but breaking this circle is extremely hard.