Yesterday I had an interesting experience. I’ll be traveling soon to Africa and I need some extra vaccinations. My parents were going to take care of that with their doctor but I have the feeling the underestimated the inflexibility of my flexible work regarding trying to fix an appointment. So the travel date was getting closer and closer and still no appointment.
Another week filled up where i wouldn’t be able to get the shots anymore and I started to panic. I just had one day that i could actually use to contact the doctor and make my appointment for next week. I couldn’t reach my parents to let them know, but decided to proceed and get my own appointment anyway, as there would be the risk that i wouldn’t be able to get one at all in time.
So i called the doc and they would call me back before a certain hour. They didn’t. I understand that this was the most busy day of the week and all the reasons but my stress levels went absolutely through the roof. Half hour after the designated time i gave them a call, completely stressed out and close to tears. I tried to remain as calm as possible and explained the situation. The assistant understood and i was able to set my appointment. I felt so utterly relieved after that.
I understand my parents wanted to arrange stuff but it just didn’t work for me. Stuff that is this important i need to take care of myself, or it turned out I will get seriously stressed when I have the feeling time is passing by and nothing is happening and deadlines are approaching and there’s a risk of stuff going seriously wrong. Pro-active works for me. It makes me feel a lot less stressed even though I’m not always happy that I have to be the one to arrange things.
I guess there will come a time when I will be able to let this go a bit more but for now this need to be in control is quite big.