[2001-03-24] – [04:20 a.m.]
You know.. i really had it with Wander. There was a time when i actually felt pity for him because he couldn’t get his stuff in order, but after almost 3000 dollars that i had to pay off in debts because of his fuck ups the pity became a lot less. I still didn’t hate him though. But now it’s gone to an all time low. I just went to the storage thing we have downstairs. I took a bike out so there was a bit more room. The waterheater that i got from my sister is gone. I was supposed to install that instead of the boiler that’s nearly broken now. It’s gone. It’s not there anymore. It’s worth 500 dollar. I’m so angry, if he would have been here i would have hit him. I wanted to hit him in the past, but now i’m so mad i would actually do it. If i find out that he has it, i’m going to sue his fucking ass.
He still owes me over 500 dollar too. I know his new adress. It’s MY damn heater! I thought that with him leaving i would finally calm down a little, but even one fucking month after he left he still manages to get me upset. Maybe i should have let barry kick his ass. Godd dammit! I’m so angry i could break stuff. I was about to go to sleep, but now i’m wide awake. I want to scream, curse, yell, but it’s 4.30 in the morning. Tomorow i’m first going to call my parents, i want to make sure that they didn’t take it away to be stored somewhere else. I can’t imagine they did, coz they don’t have the key to my basement. I still need to make sure though. I hate this. I fucking hate this. I’m so angry i could cry, but crying won’t help. I’m just going to keep typing here untill i have calmed down a little. There is no one i can talk to now, i don’t want to wake up Valentine. I think i have scared of a friend of mine on icq who’s not used to me cussing like hell. He’s not responding anymore.
I didn’t realise that Wander could still make my life so miserable even after the fuckhead moved out. I’m really tempted to wake val up, coz i really need to vent this anger and it’s not working in my diary. I’m taking deep breaths to keep calm so i won’t start throwing things around. This is not an anxiety attack, this is an anger attack.
If he indeed took the water heater, i’m going to pay him a little visit in delft to kick his ass, maybe even literally. I have really had it with him.